Try and help him please. He makes me pay for my car insurance & makes me do everything. Im having a very similar experience now- I do hope things are getting better for you. I only really ask when I need the money. This may take your mind off things for a while and may help you will your issue. Maybe today, Ill just take a good long shower and that would be enough. and. I dont see what wonderful plan God has for me in store except to maybe land in heaven and live good. Reading all the comments above just make me felt that Im not alone. Work was piling up. I happen to think, while going through it, it is worse than if they died, because if they died, you can at least tell yourself that if they were alive, they would talk to you, and you could enjoy them. A couple months later, we got back together (Im an idiot, I know). Idk how to feel happiness again. Ive tried crowdfunding to raise money to start my own company but that only seems to work for big people who already have nice lives an money. Microsoft pleaded for its deal on the day of the Phase 2 decision last month, but now the gloves are well and truly off. A useless EATER as the nazis used to use for useless members of their STATE.. (learnt from the man in high castle) EPIC Show about germany winning the war/japs. I hate it even more when Im told its hormonal by my husband. My Dad still complains day and night about my mom and how she doesnt understand him. I know exactly how you feel.. As with the Dad issues, mine arent remotely as extreme but nevertheless the relationship with my Dad is far from comfortable. My husband gets home around 7pm. This is laughable because it doesnt address that there may be a real and serious problem in your life that is making you utterly miserable. You believe the SH^&% they fill your head with about college making you a success in life. Enjoy instant streaming of some of these episodes here. I feel I was made to be disappointed. So I basically latched on to YouTube and games. God .i just cry and all the losses from child hood felt all that pain then had to feel all pain i blocked out in life growing up in a alholic family.and ben sober for 31 years .and 58 years latter im learing who i realy am underneath all the mask i have worn all my life.hang in there go through the pain . I also feel like I have limited choices in jobs because of short term memory loss due to brain damage, but I know I could improve it if I read more. My one coworker is younger but everyone else is older. Life as an adult was not better. Well that happend to mine. No matter what approach I take, what I try, what counseling or other help approach Ive taken, nothing makes a difference or changes anything. I am often a bit sad. Its funny my mom was so quick to let me know what a disappointment I was. Made it clear how much she went through for me, injuring her back during pregnancy at all. I feel bad about this because its not their fault I decided to go back to work and I am thinking of quitting. Id go to the mall with her and watch her shop for herself in our leisure time together. Before I got pregnant I was so happy with my life, I was never depressed ever. The more we can stick through hard times without expecting the road to be easy, the better we can handle what life throws at us. Instead of having complete faith in my actions, I encouraged self-doubt which eventually destroyed my peace of life and career. And I think after all this shit my life has become I deserve to be happy once again. Kid, I take my hat off. My parents are super poor and living with my grandpa for about five years, which my grandma died a few years back While I was home, which still scars me. Employment centers, volunteer centers and women organizations are willing to help offer advice. It is not nor it cannot come to good: Same here Rose. We live in separate houses, and I truly feel like Ive made a big mistake. I hate my life and no matter what I do to try to change myself or any aspect of my life, it fails. Dont waste it on negative things. Thank God I have been able to lessen the blow. I have been a single mother of two girls for over 10 years. I am still scared of my life. I became devastated. I am burnt out and burdened, and I hate my life. And like the marriage, there have been good times but also very, very bleak ones. Exhibitionist & Voyeur 11/16/18: Sharing Jill Ch. If you live in a rural area, are poor, and arent interested in Jesus, you can just curl up and die as far as anyone else is concerned. Show them how amazing life is. Im 32, divorced and no children. Im sorry to say this but if your child is suicidal and seems unwilling to go through life then it is your fault, directly or indirectly. BTW Im about 10 years older than you and the frustration only gets more debilitating. I want to write screenplays as an adult. Hey there, dude. Then if youre brave enough to put your well being in the hands of Big Pharma, you might find some sort of relief brieflyuntil all of the other side effects of your miracle pill end up killing you anyway. And then I started my first year of high school. But I hate idiots who block others due to their own incompetence. You guys could not ever get it. Dont drag others down more because of it. Life does change. Its a lot to write here.. dont work like a slave.. do your own research. I can hear it in the way you expressed your situation. I mean, I feel controlled by my family, friends and people. Of course, my Dad dismisses it as silly ways as most of my contamination issues are with him. I struggle with this everyday because I know that people measure success monetarily. I feel alone, unwanted, not loved. No friends, singled out, nobody literally cares about my existence any longer(no one talks to me, probably all my friends are busy with their own lives) and my parents have started showing signs that i am a burden in their lives. Reminder: I have a good paying job now, nice rental by the beach, some money saved up, but I am the most miserable person Ive ever been. for no apparent reason. For instance. That way I feel so supported. Anna. Right now Im fighting the urge to cry. I used to have a job, working with my mother, but it got shut down. if I had kids, no way would I ever come here and talk about my darlings dear Kathleen Castro. I certainly hope you used a fake name yes, I take some of my anger toward my own mother out on you today Kathleen Castro. Its been always like this, and just gets worst by the days. We are happy together. 30 For we are members of His body,[a] of His flesh and of His bones. I spend most of my days at work just to be broke after bills. I try to take breaks but that only decreases my grade and increases my stress. I am short, balding. I have friends, friends who i can trust, i even came out to my best friend and a few friends and they were pretty positive bout it. My grandparents died 6 and 5 years ago and had dementia. ?And ?? That was even worse and u tried to warn them , my brother suffers from STBI , coma for two moths and made it they thanks to my medical skills withe the doctors, after he got out the girl accused him off secyally molesting his child and was locked up for a year/half until my parents got his bond, a lot of good that does , he a registered sex offender, and my parents 72/78 are as well since he lives with them. and it seems like I have to help him. I know its easier said than done, but can you not make arrangements to disappear from that hell? Study job postings and acquire those skills you need. That makes u happy. When you are a woman over 50 you are seen as garbage and it doesnt matter what I think. First of all, be yourself and learn that you are not on the earth to act or live according to others expectations It kills your every moment. I read the Bible for a sense of purpose even though it seems I see none. This will lead to you to take your mind off your parents and you will have a sense of self achievement and pride. She denied the reality of my views and existence as a separate person with my own proclivities and preferences during that trip. Once you feel as if you are part of a vast movement to improve things and relieve pointless suffering everywhere, you will be MUCH better off, and that goes for EVERY PERSON who has posted here. The first guy I take an interest in after 10 and a half years I guess is just not interested. It really does such right now. Its hard, but hang in there! I understand that gas is really expensive and they dont get paid a lot, but my stepfather somehow manages to buy alcohol one to three times a week, and its really expensive, more than the gym I want to go to to get in shape. I really hate my life. Fetish 06/07/20: Only One Seat Left (4.50) Young woman needs bus ride, sits on strange black man's lap. The thought of taking hormones to become something else with major surgery was just too crazy of an idea. I can not help you although I feel for you. You are dealing with all this yourself but you are just a kid. Most of us have experienced that pivotal peak of pain, anger or frustration in which we want to scream I hate my life. Yet, the feeling that a dark cloud has specifically settled over us and our experiences can feel pretty isolating. though am sad my parents were now happy and they want me to go for srcond marriage but I feel so hard, he doesnt showed true love but mine is true.and am worried about my 9yrs old son who loves his father to the core. I have a child so if I go away from this life I am thinking about the future of my daughter. I hope that you can do something about it. Your heart will soon dance in joy and all your desires and dreams comes true . You are valuable to someone especially your son. Well does anyone else really hate being single? No matter where were at in our lives, its important to remember that we can handle loss or change. Maybe he did & maybe he didnt, but we dont know, so why should any of us assume that he hasnt put in effort? things have gotten so hectic with her and i, i have decided to live in my car because i just cannot take it anymore! especially since my self belief was stripped away from my narcassistic ex Im left a shell of my former self not knowing what to do next. I cant see where to go from here. My son hasnt spoken to me in almost 2yrs. There is no shame in seeking help. I would say most parents are good parents and not the fault. I understand your situation and can empathize it because I underwent the same. I feel like i have no one to talk to and really need help. We might not be able to change everything, but we can work towards changing what we can, and that is how things become better. *situation I am in. sorry if too ling but just needed to reach outbtona groupnthat has bren in my place and knows what the real struggle isv?????? Pretty sad and pathetic. I kept perfecting my resumes for every position with no grammar and spelling mistakes. Im not sure if you will reply to this. Its already taken place and the outcome has already been determined. They are always making my life hell, i cant reach out for help as im from pakistan and there arent many people i can reach out too. Sorry to hear that Anna, I feel burnt out myself. I keep saying that when the weather gets warmer Id eventually feel better cause Id be able to enjoy the outdoors more. Others around this person dont understand why they are like they are. Its nearly impossible to put an exact emotion perfectly in words, but it has really been affecting me. my dad told me that my mom resented him most because she wanted him so bad.. while on the other hand she told me he said i wasnt his child. The older I get the harder it seems to be getting and with no partner or children to care for me if I get sick or when Im older the end of my life isnt looking that flash other than death will be a blessing from all the crap things that have happened to me and all Ive ever wanted is to feel loved, safe and that I matter and to share my life with a life partner and have my own family. Running? Did you try linking back to your alma mater? U have that bond with your son no one will ever Im devastated. Ive been houseless so many times, I lost count. She died when I was almost at the hospital. My kids are great and Ive been married over 20 years, but going to this job every day is so bad that I can hardly describe it. how will I ever have something in a new place where I know no one. I just feel like no one really cares about me like when im sad I go to my room to cry then I here my parents having fun and laughing witch makes me feel like no one actually cares about me. For try to find that person that is true to you. but my family is poor and i cant contune my studies. Well for a Good man like me that really hates being Single and alone right now which i am very much hoping to meet a Good woman to share my life with, it really Sucks Not to have a love life today. even if no one believes me or responds, its still just good to vent and get it off my chest. Im 53 years old and Im a trial lawyer. First wife was a disaster. The only hope I truly find an answer for the torments within is giving my heart to the Lord of Lords Jesus Christ. > : (, Anyways so thats my strife with life; thanks for reading about it, assuming that you did at all of course. I will become homeless. But then she decided to keep me from seeing my daughter on her own. Ive always felt different but I feel like I really dont belong here. All of these actions are a reaction to our upbringing and dont necessarily reflect our true unique identity and point of view. anything. Any advice. Hello Henry, woman speaking, no we are not LOL. I want to earn money . I love reading the Bible and I pray when I have to. She has already made the first step here, and can take constructive advice to continue on her journey to heal and feel good about herself. My job now is to keep my job, save money and have a more comfortable living than now. Its NOT that easy. Visit the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. She divorced my dad when I was a teen and never contributed a dime to my education or to really anything much at all even when I was still in high school. I have no friends nobody to talk to or anything. Im so unhappy. The only advice I can give I have solace in prayer and this somehow gets me through .. What truly has meaning to you? Then you just made me realize it starts with me. And life is hard enough as it is without having to live with, or work with, an abuser. Being uncomfortable with my body and face, my mother and I consulted a nutritionist to try and assemble a proper eating plan that would help me lose weight. Else, And many of us single men and women as well, never wanted to be single and alone in the first place. .for me, its been at least two years.I hate my life too. Some people ARE ALONE FACT!! Is that really what people need? It kills me that I gave him so much and he forgot about me just like that. Again. I have anxieties and depression. My relationship is turning toxic and I just feel like no matter what i do this cycle will never change I am writing this today because I dont know how else to get all this stuff out of my head! I somehow managef to get divorce but how will I take second marriage, all things, places, etcetcreminds me him. Life is hard sometimes keep your head up. I seem to only meet men who are jerks or cheaters. Its harder to make friends or do much of anything. The thing about what Jason said is correct. I am not able to go back to the land of enchantment? brilliant question! also i am overweight and live in the country. Iran is changing a lot and I hope that your children will get to experience a life with choices. keep your head up and do what you love the most! In his 35 years of research, Dr. Salvatore Maddi of The Hardiness Institute has discovered that what predicts how well we will do in life, our relationships, careers, and so on is NOT how much money we have or even how many struggles we face. I tried joining different groups but it never seems to work out. I would love to get one email. Blessings and love sweetie. i feel like my day is the same everyday and im wasting my life, im too afraid to meet new people and too scared to come out. My sister is depressed and cries all the time, my parents dont like each other; none of us are satisfied with our lives. Learn more about mindfulness. So here is my main problem that I have never said to anyone, because I dont want to be judged and be alone(but I am alone now so I dont care anymore) , I have a fucking strong body odor, okay first I take a bath everyday and I take care of myself but then one day people stopped talking and socializing with me only to find out theyre disgusted in me,I dont even know how I got this nasty smell on my body. Its important to create for yourself a family of choice. Of course, this may include people youre related to. Be The One To Help Save A Life From Suicide. :/. I am an addict, and I go to meetings. I keep having to prove myself that I am worthy of my job. even a hacker is watching me and i have a virus. Why do people think there is relief in knowing that others are suffering in unison. At the end of my husbands life and at the end of my father s life they both turned to me for strength when they were weak. Hold your head up. I work full time. If I knew then what I knew now I would have forgone college and gotten into a tech vocation, such as programming or even working in healthcare in radiology or surgery, saved my money and stayed out of debt. With this amount of courage you can achieve great stuff once your independed. First, with odor and all, love urself. I also have severe asthma stemming from very premature birth so I know how it feels to constantly be on medication. I want to get out and have fun hanging out with people that arent blood relatives. I cannot force anyone to fall in love with me? Sadly I made the mistake of going to visit my family last year (it is hard to not get to see anyone because of that one bad apple). Maybe its too much to ask for a little adult time, but, I dont know who I am anymore, and have been struggling to stay sane this last year, with circumstances as they are. I got married to someone that didnt treat me right, moved across the country from my family, 8 years ago and now they have all passed away and I have no one. I dont have any friends or boyfriend so I cant even find a family of choice. And this is just the tip of the iceberg; my problems have become titanic. Im sorry to hear that may the Lord hear your prayers then unto him can heal your pain. just one email to really prove God loves me and hasnt left me all alone by myself. We can all learn to become more resilient. I have very few actual friends, and those I do have are out of state. WebI was married to man for three years who practiced the silent treatment..often. I was afraid to ask her for help but I am glad I did. Which is also not real. A selfish and destructive person isnt going to change; the only thing that can change is what we feel obligated to keep providing to that person (or persons.) Denial was a weapon; it killed truth, numbed the mind, and I was a junkie. John Hart If you, Life. Direction and goals in life does help. Raised myself to get good grades and get ahead on my own, but learned to trust no one. Because I am a woman !!! Be mindful of isolation this is the first sign of abuse and in this case it sounds as if your father is a cohort in the process you begin to think that you are crazy because you are not surrounded by people that would look on your situation and identify if for what it is. U pay not bills and if been dont like u i aint gna change nothing, u stil pay your own bills so there for your strong and deserve happiness. Yea good times..life is so unfair. I could fill up a book if I was to start listing all the different misfortunate occurrences that keep happening to me. ex wife she died. I dont know how to fix my life. I feel like I have to prove that he is wrong. I cannot imagine the frustration you must feel in that situation. Try having a spinal cord tumor and than tell me how much you hate life. I am so filled with hurt and resentment. The small moments of happiness I get are always taken away from me by some outside force. Why not pack that bag and drive.it will take guts but if nothing is holding you back just do it. We only get one shot at life, so do it at your dictat wherever you want. Just get to 18 or so and see if you still feel the same, take it one day at a time. I was with a guy who was having a very hard time making his life right. Myself being an introvert doesnt actually make me felt down in the first place because maybe, just maybe I am unique in my own terms. Well sometimes people want to get stuff out of their system so dont be rude I dont see you giving advice. We are all human and full of flaws. Except a granddaughter . Gabby added, I think going in, knowing a little bit about it from Claytons season and stuff, I feel like we both had the attitude to put each other first. I was raised by my grandmother my Mothers Mom,My Mom gave birth to me and my brother before she was married, my grandmother died on February 2012,after my grandmother s death my life became a mess,because no one loves me in that f**k family, I dont know my father, Im 20 years now,I dont have identity documents because my Mom dont want to take a full responsibility, My Mom is now married, She has Six children in her marriage and she is expecting another one,she dont love me,either Im dead or alive thats not her problem, she dont care,on the 25/07/2018 my Aunt died of unexpected disease that took her life within 3 days(chicken pox)she meant a world to me,I cried a lot after her death,even now Im still crying because she was my role model,she was like a mother to me,no one has or can love me like her,now my life is a mess,Im not working,I have nothing to eat,no clothes, Im still in need of a job,but nothing,I have no idea. At the moment I feel so alone. we are all star dust. Are your insides in balance I have Facebook friends but most of them are family or just acquaintances. I have to divide and conquer. Finally, they moved away. i have the so called FRIENDS but they just want my money please i need lots of help. Is there anything you enjoy doing? Im mostly an introvert, so I dont feel like I could really hold a conversation even if I started one. I can never work in my field again because I got arreste. We cant afford to get my wife health insurance, yet we make enough that the supplemental health card bullshit that Obama created will not help us. She has been my only friend I could count on. My mum also has cancer. Maybe I can start a small side hustle. She doesnt need a boyfriend, she needs friends to talk to. Much more important in every way than your husband, because you gave life, and love. Ive also felt this way since the beginning of my marriage and also excuse my husbands ways for some neurological disorder. I use to feel that way when I was married to my ex. Im 18. Love your friend x. This critical inner voice is there to undermine and sabotage us in every area of our lives, our careers, relationships and personal goals. Second wife better, but goes through irrational periods I just dont understand. Fuck my life. Please. Still no luck, no interview calls, all my friends and classmates are in good jobs earning handful, while I am still living on my parents money and huge bank debts. I dont want to be a dad. The only person that can help you is you and you have to want to be helped, to start down that road. am i depressed ?? Each of us has to find our own way. Im not really a religious but as long as u have faith love in him thats much more love to him. the devil is out there and will do anything to wreck our lives. Dont base your life on what you dont have, concentrate on what you have- a dog, interests etc. Prepare and practice an elevator speech about who are you and what brings you there, etc. I am alone all the time even at work around customers I feel so alone and without a support system or family and friends . In the last year, he remarked I was too old for long hair and I just put it up and hid it for awhile and then he shut up for a while. Its important to separate this alien coach from our true point of view. But I love my parents, I dont blame them at all. I dont even have real who stood by me. In order to compensate for not having his evening glass of scotch, he brings loads and loads of junk food into the house and eats it at night. 02 (4.48) Tricked into visiting a slave farm. Your son will be a better man because you will see to that. I wish they would just let me go and live my own life and make friends. But on top of being depressed every month because I cant have a baby (for over 4 years and counting) I have to be concerned that I need another surgery for my disease. If you do what is right, dont give a damn about what the others think or say. Time will heal every thing. I am so disappointed of him today. Accepting life as it is without colouring much, accepting ur innnerself ..will take ur life a peaceful journey. Not when but IF they flower into the great people they will be. Reading all this is helping me a lot and helping me clear out my mind, what I think of your situation is that your marriage has sunk, you obviously need your husbands support, you not wanting to be home is yourself looking out for you, you can see how the world is out there and has realize you exist. Ive read all of your poststhe only thing that comes to mind is Opinions are like a**holes; Everybody has one. Not wanting to live. He makes no effort because he knows I dont like him (he knows that I know he talks about my mother, and how he never wanted me). I hate myslef because iam ugly a fat cow spottie and I hate everyone but the people I love is my boyfriend eathan and my friends beacuse the amzing siooooo I have emotions for different days so yeah I now know who to talk to the insides beacuse if my guts tell me It just comes to me I hate me sometime I live me but today I am texting u to tell u my emotions Learn more about Voice Therapy. i dont know what to do , I think that most of us felt that way when we were 13, you have a lot of emotions going on now for the simple fact of being 13. Check out the latest breaking news videos and viral videos covering showbiz, sport, fashion, technology, and more from the Daily Mail and Mail on Sunday. Most days I just sit in front of the television until its bedtime, sleep, get up, go to work at a job I dont particularly like (it isnt terrible, I just dont find joy in it), go home, and do it all over again. Finally after many years I actually was on the up! When your children flower into the great people they will be b/c of your loving care, you will know the point of it all Believe it is all worth it and keep striving to improve your situation. Look, I know its frustrating but you got too keep on going. Ive lost all hopes in life now, completely lost. I dont even feel like shes even a friend. Single forever. both stories may be true but they are both valid reasons for her bitterness. I hate it & its not that Im lazy but its hard for me Im only 17 & I cant find a job & speaking about jobs my dad is making me only work at his business like Im not allowed to work any where else which completely brings me down like thats so not fair. This process starts with asking ourselves a few questions, starting with: One of the reasons we have the feeling of I hate my life is because we arent really following our own path. Hardiness involves accepting that we have some control over our situation, and that there are always steps we can take to improve our circumstances. And at the same time Im trying to fake reality, so the evil doesnt exist again. If I can add my own tale. I would be defeated and unable to try again right away. I hate my life And sometimes I can tolerate it .butwhen I disagree with him. I have no one to hang out with. I am full of hate, anger and sadness. I enjoy staying indoors and do not like going out all of the time. Bernie understands that too, but the rich own everything including the once golden American dream. You are right being lonely is most difficult weather being single or married. People who complain about their jobs piss me off, but, until now, I say nothing because I might say something too harsh. Am just mad. Im tired of feeling like a bad person because I get upset. Guess I need to start looking towards the positive side. And what pisses me off lately is that a lot of companies expect people to work part-time doing a 30 hours per week. Doesnt mean they have to be in your life. I am and will never belong here. I feel stuck in a loveless marriage. Now i live in a tiny racist town with no opportunity or public transportation. After that I am confident that I will be fine. Forget her, youre under her spell and she just wants you to suffer. I have been working on getting insurance just to see a therapist to work past my troubling history. I work a job that doesnt pay enough for me to pay my bills and I have to live on credit cards and they are almost maxed out. I truly hope you find peace and the freedom to live your own life. U can get over it trust me just know it takes time,, SEE ted talks for wahtver your addiction is, is it screens? I dont blame them though, but thats how I got totally out of my mind. I always receive a complete waste of time for all thats good and holy in this godforsaken sinful affairs of this world. You dont know if youre going to judge people, dont say anything. neighbors ar e nosy and annoying. in relationships the couple need to be supportive and console each other in ups and downs so its nothing out of the world thing he was doing to you.. I cannot do anything in this awful house because he sees everything as HIS. I dont understand why one man has to go through this emotional hell on Earth? We have spent at least 48 hours of time calling and trying to find a way to get her some kind of insurance just so that she can go to the doctor. I know how distressing your life if you were abused by him (my possible assumption). Then literally 1 week after she left she asked me for money and demanded I needed to pay her car payment and bills! I feel so alone, but reading your comment made me feel better only because now I know Im not the only one who feels that way. Its a lot more helpful and constructive if you show people. I control NOTHING in my life. 5 years ago i left my perfect (so people think) husband. It doesnt help! Last time he got mad at me because I didnt tell him the food was ready so he took my car away & made me take the bus. He took the kids and I there to spend that Christmas with his family and his mistress was present at the party still unspecting to me, I now feel like a fool. Your grandparents will not stop you to be happy, they are too old even if they whished to Poor russian girl. Its funny.. how you all feel lonely, like serving a prison sentence. It takes money to do stuff. and wont leave me alone!! Basically, It doesnt allow me to do most forms of exercise. Can I know your age? I hope you will find happiness one day. Its your life not theirs, f..! Who knows what is round the corner ? I didnt get angry at first. And most of us with these issues have learned to hide it well. I feel like I can never get ahead. We fought in court im abit looser coz i do not have fix financial which im against his big financial with my kids. I just started giving up on the subjects I didnt think mattered and it has been damaging my grades. I dont go out, do drugs, etc. Why do you tell us that? 3 Easy Things to Try to Immediately Improve Your Mood, Strategies for Discussing Race, Racial Discrimination, & Racial Trauma with Youth in 2020, Psychalive - Psychology for Everyday Life, Nobody Likes Me: Understanding Loneliness and Self-shame. They grew up under the table where I worked and I taught them values. hello all Im very sorry to read all of u I hate my life too Im 27 years old and Im nothing no education no job I cant do anything good Im just useless person when I cry all night I feel better cry with my self coz I dont want my kids to see me cry they r small and I love them sooo much they r everything too mere. But now, I have no family except for my kids, no friends, no job. I do most things alone but many time I think it would be nice to share the moment with. It could be just managing to drink to litres of water for that day.. keep active and tell them demonds in your head, im busy today! I am not happy, I cannot spent the rest of my life with some body I dont love. I understand. I weigh in at 175 pounds and at the moment I have a really bad self-image. He wants me to cook and be at home taking care of all the responsibilities at home n my child. Ive been hating my life more than I ever have. Yeah. No one helped me Not my older brothers or sister (I am the youngest). So I did have a nice stretch of no contact about a year or two of absolutely no phone or in-person contact. something weve never had. Happy! Presenting stuff age-old stuff people have already tried and aware of. But now things have just gotten worse for me ever since my grandmother died in October of 2016; and my dad who had been living with her was once again moved to another place to live a few month after the death, only this time he was taken out of state to live in Sarasota Florida while Im still her in Rochester New York and have not seen him in months and I dont know when hell be brought back or if he will ever at all. Im dragged down every day but I get up. It just sucks. He then taught the technique to our daughter. But thank you. He didnt become this way by choice. Nobody can take away your accomplishments. Dry with a clean towel and use some lavender powder. I have no car or license because in 2006 someone stole my license an rented a car at some shoddy place an crashed it. pathetic). Theres something death that makes it easier to understand when theres new life around you. Who you know and who knows you and likes you enough to help out gets you a job. I feel so happy I can reach out here. I hate my life. I used to love exercise and now all I want to do is lie in bed all day! As I write this a lightbulb comes on that maybe Ive expected him to see me as Someone because I dont see myself as Someone in the first place. I am an 11 year old boy and my life sucks, Hay sweetheart. I have a very hard time maintaining my willpower around it. God punished a very good man like me with singleness, since meeting a good woman to settle down with is very impossible nowadays. Im having a really hard time lately. Use some mild deodorant and perfume during the day. I just want to run, drive until I can feel better. SCREAM INTO A PILLOW IF NECESSARY. Just shut up. Basically i was pushing him out my life because of her. I am heartbroken for this. This brother and his wife have never like me from the start but they pretend a lot and he sheal them. Missnoone after reading your comment You sound just like me ..but my story more painful. What do you do when you seem at a loss for answers and a way through all the heartbreak, heartache, abuse and knockbacks? Thanks bye x. Im a ten year old boy to and I really do hate my life my friend say there friends but thay always annoy me and ceep asking for stuf and its always do this for me and all stop annoying you and the next day guess what doing it again till I do it for them and then theres a kid in my class that always bugs me his name is James and he always targets me not anyone elses only bugging me it makes no sense to me I just hate him for what he dose to me makes no sense to bully makes people feel angry and I always mess things up the dogs turd everywhere and we (do) pick it up and is so discussing and I halve a girl friend and Im always messing things up and I get grounded all the time and its so annoying and my dad died when I was five years old my mo gets to be annoying some of the time and it makes me so mad and Im also depressed about all of this to Im also adopted I met my birth mothe r but never my birth father and I didnt meet all my brothers and sisters and it bugs me so much and all of this makes me feel angry but some times I know my mom is there for me but some times I dont tell her what im thinking or why I get so angry all the time. I want to do many stuff but I cant do it coz I have to be with mom. Dear ZeeZee, your husband is a deadbeat, your sons are old enough to take for themselves (as I understood), just take the money and valuables you need (you have a right to half) and leave. Where do I go from here? Im trapped in a city I despise because of my wifes career while I have a career that would allow me to work in almost any major city in the world. My grandparents died 6 and 5 years ago and had dementia. And so it continues. At least thats what what I came to know from the way the valued their classes. Guitar, piano and singing I great ways of expression. But I have to keep going to survive. I am with you wholeheartedly. i am 8 old boy my grill friend left my 4 10 year boy named nowah I am depresed and I hate myself I am so fat and uogly I hate myself every tim I look at mirror I feel the anger I feel like nowah is lafing every Tim I look him in the aye I need help ?????????? I noticed that many nuclear modern American families are against having single platonic friends. Do something, anything instead of wasting time thinking about how bad your life is. Yall are all so beautiful, and kind, and smart, and just plain incredible!! I try my hardest, and its not enough. Dont make excuses, dont be a victim. I say I hate life pretty often and I am always being negative. I pray and read the Bible and was raised Christian. Beg pardon, my laptop is badly balanced on my lap and the keystrokes did not regsiter. This life makes me so very sad every day. I been sober for 1 1/2 years now and my life has never been more mundane, mindnumbing, and pointless. Yes money is nice to have but its besides that to keep people happy n to keep em going I never had anyone give me confidence or the encouragement to do anything productive with my life I always was veribally abused badly. Jason, Im checking into getting vocational retraining via One Stop (Vocational rehab for autistic people is a joke). You cant possibly determine whos situation is more painful by reading a little paragraph. Well i know that i do as a single man that cant find love with the right woman to settle down with, which makes our life so very rotten as it is. Being an introvert and having a myriad of other problems to deal with, have taken a toll on my life too. This transferred to the home, where I started to help with the finances. Choose a job that you will be good at! What about the type of bullying called gangstalking and how so many people are singled out and abused, bullied and harassed by police and others and how it is a government thing and what can the victims of this do and are there any support groups for people who are victims of this? I have been listening to Sirius radio channel 128 Maybe someone else could take over the care of your parents. I implore YOU to go to therapy before it is too late before you are too old and set in your ways to change. So i gave all my pain, sorrow and feelings to our father in heaven for guidance. I never told anyone about it but I suspect my fathers illness is too blame. You are a Mother. now in his business (BECAUSE he woke up late to find that he had run out of money) i have to be his TYPIST. I tried applying to other relay companies to no avail. We are treated as if we are the only ones going through this ****, but the SYSTEM WANTS us to believe we are all suffering alone and that it is OUR FAULT but that is a terrible abusive LIE. Its sad but its true that you have to fake it for a job. I get negativity. I sincerely hope that your life change in a phenomenal way where luck embrace you like never before and close doors are opened for ever. Now I hope you leave another 50 years but ask your self these questions every night I trusted him I felt safe with him but know I fill empty be trade alone like Im the only person in the dark world my life I hate. Youd think shes older than me even though Im the older one. I doubt there are many like me, but there must be some. Ty! I wont have to walk near as much each day so I will have allot more energy. And my friends dont really talk to me or anything and I dont really know them. Sending love your way. As long as that place is a university city, or you are interested in help that consists of nothing but people quoting Bible verses, the serenity prayer, and or shantideva at you. Iam tired of feeling lonely all the time. I know it would me feel worse about myself. She is much happier when I am miserable. a doctor. This surgery had me on crutches and in a chair for a while. I feel like my parents set expectations too high for me. But say its bad. I feel like suing them for that one. The dream is dead and gone, the efforts at meeting people, improving career, finding hobby groups, just nothing pans out. I think most of us who have come to this site are obviously suffering some sort of depression & negative thoughts about ourselves, but lets work on those & not project them onto others. Sad. I have to see him at work all the time and it kills me. My daughter and I go through this cycle about every 3-4 months and have been for the last 18 years. By realizing the ways we have power over our lives, we can feel stronger and more resilient in any obstacle we face. Dang are you living my life. I did the pregnancy by myself and I brought my kid up by myself and handled every abusing situation by myself. I go everywhere alone will take my daughter too. My life has not been easy. But what can I do? I reach my breaking point last January when I found out that he was having an affair with his brother wife best friend. My relatives neglected us, we were the bad sheep. Let them worry about themselves. Should I loop that statement around one more time? Anyone older than 44 would love to be your age. 8 Finally, [a]believers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable and worthy of respect, whatever is right and confirmed by Gods word, whatever is pure and wholesome, whatever is lovely and brings peace, whatever is admirable and of good repute; if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think continually on these things [center your mind on them, and implant them in your heart]. I dont know what to do. Like you I feel Ive painted myself into a corner, though I couldnt see any other way at the time, but I just want chances, I want to feel alive and I want to live. I am a 39 yr old single mother who is raising two teenage boys on a fixed income. Just kept insisting that as I was her daughter I should be staying with her. I think it all leads to sucking out easiness in getting a positive viewpoint of my death. By posting, you have shown your courage. Well said; l thought the same thing; if you are making a post here your in a lot of pain no matter what; how or buts. Does it occur to a psychotic that hes suspecting that decent folks are bad people? Im tired of the one that has to be strong with no support. Our problems seem to come from other people. Hate your situation and your lack of power, but, maybe, lets try to stop hating ourselves because nobody deserves to be miserable. Keep your eyes open for answers and ideas. I have struggled with drugs and alcohol, and depression. A lot of things have been happening in my life, and I feel so busy and stressed. Sorry if its confusing as well. He talks to everyone except me. it makes me feel so retarded. Im just so unhappy. I just want to be invisible. Ive been strong and lived the way I wanted as far as my limited means allow and Ive raised my child to be strong and free, but the frustration is a constant. Theres no help or sympathy for poverty stricken mothers who need a second chance. When I was seven, a boys mom accused me of sexually assaulting him, though the boy almost raped me and told his mom that I refused so she spread the rumor, so we moved. Yes Em it is the easy option. All my actions are totally worthless and futile. Dont just assume the normal, because people that grew up with everything are never just normal. She says they can find a job and pay for everything themselves which I know she is completely right but I just cant do that to my parents. Also, I have serious OCD which i take medication for and that no matter how much therapy i get, doesnt seem to go away so Ive learned to deal with it as best I can. Make the change. It just sucks because she doesnt appreciate any of it. Is bipolar disorder is curable? I hate my life. I know that it has been a long time since you wrote this, and I hope that you solved your issues. I didnt have that success in my 20s, I had a child. And yes, with her neg influence, I fled the relationship, best one I ever had. Not being accepted in the Deaf Elite community or in the hearing community Im on my own island. Love -- kindness, affection, sensitive attunement, respect, companionship -- is not only difficult to find, but is even more challenging. I sit at home all the time because there is nothing at all to do. I fill mad I fill betrayed I fill anger I fill all alone, I have a journal on the bye I like I have a meddle hart with his name on it it goes every where with me well did Im getting red of all of it, It kills me to say this but we are no longer friends I dont know what to do its killing meeeeeee, This is whats going on Im sorry to him but whet ever. We barely have, Theres nothing more frightening than the concern that someone you know may be at risk for suicide. I am a boy and bisexual and hiding that fact and who i am affects my mental health everyday, negatively. My beautiful pregnant daughter died, I have to pay $2000 a month alimony even though Im disabled from a fall I took, I cant work, I have chronic pain, my girlfriend is angry all the time, there is no intimacy in our relationship, I take care of my mom who has dementia, I hate my life. Here is the catch. Pain of all kinds is so paralyzing & Im so sick of learning the lessons. I think it would help you to talk to your mom. I know how you feel. I tried to detach and it was like watching a very sad movie and train wreck rolled into one. They gave me warnings but they eventually let me go but by that time I got a better job offer and took it. But even that became boring after a while and many hours of my days were spent feeling sorry for myself. I take medication and I have spoken to Drs and therapists and read loads of self help books but I seem to travel round the same vile circle year in, year out!! got married at 18, im 32 now. WOW. Fear or fear of failing? Things have just accentuated, because we finally became financially secure, but now have doubled our him stress by taking Im two grandchildren that were taken away from my step daughter. I am tired, unappreciated, hopeless and what else you can describe it. I go through random emotional drops that have no explanation no rational cuase that i can guess. I have somuch resentments for him, its been more than a year and my feeling for him have not change. I came from a poor background where I didnt have much growing up and my girlfriend had everything she needed. When I was two and three me and my family moved twice and started losing money. its frustrating to no end. I thank you for speaking your feelings out. I think its better to not have a boyfriend, or maybe have better communication. I know what can help me, although it seems not to work. I use to be so happy and now I feel like crap all the time. Anyone or feel this isnt my fault I feel the first step is taking responsibility. I ruin my credit and use all my retirement savings to live. It upsets me to think that when I have got so much to offer to them for a very less salary that they should be so naive towards me. Useless, less than basic, no help at all for poor people who cannot afford mental help. Maybe some people have lived a messed up life in their head for so long that Hope has been overtaken or maybe even overrated. YUUUUUUUUCK. There are many actions we can take when we feel turned against ourselves and our lives. Im a 16 year-old guy who has a serious mountain of problems to climb over. My partner doesnt even believe in oral sex, like how boring and lame is that. Ive been there alot unemployed i do not have a degree coz i was too busy raising my kids while they grew up their father just claimed them just like that. Thank you for sharing your story. The only thing is, shes way prettier than me so everytime we go out guys only talk to her and Im left there feeling like a huge piece of shit once again. We want to know there is a brighter future. Your story us worth telling. Dont wait until your patents pass. That isnt right. I want to go into the medical field so Im trying to find jobs related to that or internships at hospitals but its diffucult. Also he constantly accuses me that I will return to my ex who I had a 13 year relationship with. You have given so much and now its your turn to believe in yourself and get something just for you. I asked my volunteer project owner if I could do certain tasks just to get the experience to put it on my resume. My kid years were happy. Since Im not doing so well I am afraid that I might not get into a good college not even CSUN which is the school my dad is expecting me to go to. You have just gotten away from a life with a woman who would torture you your whole life, and her probably norman bates type son. At this point I feel like there is only death around me. State farm is suing me for 18000 dollars. So I support them. Im totally reliant on him . I never had a friend until high school. I feel like the worst husband and dad in the world. The fake-care of some pseudo-Dr, who probably bought their qualifications from China, does not stop people from being alone. Ive been trying to get out of teaching for years, but I cant get back into my old field because too much time has passed and I do not make enough money to either go back to school or get training. I do enjoy my job if my new Boss will let me do it. I have one close best friend who helped me with resumes and cover letters and she is kind and caring. It makes others sad or feel there situation is okay compared to mine .. We can stay close to our partner despite the anxious thoughts our critical inner voice shouts at us. Start planning your future cause in a year or two you will be a free woman. WebScottish perspective on news, sport, business, lifestyle, food and drink and more, from Scotland's national newspaper, The Scotsman. Im glad Im not alone, we are all looking for some guidance. i feel like running away but i dont know where to go in this modern world. Check out our breaking stories on Hollywood's hottest stars! 98% of the population will have a better life if they had the money to do it with. Especially math. We only had mutual friends together which made it very difficult. 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